DISCLAIMER! This is not for pity, it is also not an instruction manual because this won’t suit everyone – GO SEE YOUR DOCTOR FOR ADVICE, this is also not a post insulting those of certain weights, it is just a personal account from a personal viewpoint about myself. Please take this into account as I do not wish to offend, or encourage unhealthy behaviour. DISCLAIMER!
Today is the first day of a diet that will last for 8 weeks. My hope is that I will lose a decent amount of weight to make shopping for clothes easier, feel a little better about myself, and worry less about the health issues attached with my current weight. It honestly scared me when I found out my BMI (the figure that relates to your weight to height) was so high. I have gained weight in the last 9 months whilst trying to lose it. I have gained so much weight that if I carry on like this I will be in serious trouble later in life, my children may well feel the effects of it, and none of it is exactly going to help potential depression in my life.
My past is full of attempted diets and exercise regimes, I was a pretty thin (naturally so) girl until the age of about 12 when I’m guessing puberty started to crash in. As a teenage girl I noticed quickly as did the bullies within my class and school. It was not fun and it made me extremely self-conscious. I tried, around age 16, to kick some of the weight I was carrying around and managed to go down a dress size (despite a big bust), but that diet that actually worried my GP mother quite a lot. I was eating around 600 calories a day, walking a lot and cycling about 30 minutes a day. The problem with this was that as soon as I stopped this diet, trying to opt for the healthy lifestyle of balanced meals I put it all back on. The most recent disappointment was when I tried pills which were somewhat like a laxative. They forced your body to reject 1/3rd of the fat you might otherwise be eating – you definitely understood what you shouldn’t eat again after the first time! My fiance, dad and I all went on these pills for around two months. They each lost around a stone or more. I lost nothing despite being stricter with myself. I ended up frustrated, annoyed and exhausted. Ironically the only time I have lost weight in the past couple of years has been 3 days before my wedding. Most women would be glad of that, except that by losing the weight suddenly then, my dress was a little loose, and being strapless was a little indecent at times – not what you need when there are guaranteed photos being taken.
This diet is an extreme option to see if on a very low calorie diet which is specifically meant to drop weight fast, then stabilise it, then maintain the weight. If this doesn’t work I will get actually rather concerned that my body is simply one that isn’t suppose to eat, anything, ever. I am planning exercise each day alongside the diet, and hopefully some toning so I don’t just become a bit floppy around the edges. Hopefully my age will help my body deal with the changes too.
The plan is a liquid-only diet. This should give me everything I need (vitamins, protein, fibre, etc) in controlled amounts. This should also allow my stomach to shrink a little, as it is generally easier to feel full after drinking a lot. This will last for 8 weeks, after that comes a controlled calorie diet as I move back onto solids for another 8 weeks, then 8 weeks of maintaining the weight. Our move to Birmingham will also help exercising as there is the Be Active campaign, and a wonderful dog to walk and teach tricks to. My hope is that by early August my life will really have changed for the better.
I figured that sharing my experience and progress may well help others who are trying to gain healthier lifestyles and lose weight (for good reasons). For this reason, although I don’t feel comfortable sharing my BMI or weight (just know that I am easily in the obese bracket of the BMI chart), I will let you know how much I’ve lost as time goes by, and possibly even hip,bust,waist measurements.
I am a little worried that my bust will disappear.. not many women enjoy a lack of boobage, but I’ll be happy to be healthier no matter what happens. You may all think this option is extreme, but I’ve been pushed to it. I know I often comfort eat, I know that I often justify something I want with bad reasons. My hope is because I can’t justify any solid food, my will power will hopefully keep me on the right track. I know my weaknesses but I am finding ways to beat them. My husband can hopefully keep me accountable too! Can’t say I won’t miss food though, especially with such great cooks around me!
I also want to emphasise the fact that I do not agree with the awful abuse many girls (and guys) get during school about their weight or size. Words hurt and often push people to feel worse, and then either to comfort eating, or a number of eating disorders. Having seen friends I care about huge amounts go through terrible times with these issues I want to tell anyone that has EVER commented on a person’s weight in a derogatory or mean-spirited way: YOU are not HELPING. If you showed your HEART a little more then maybe you’d HELP rather than just talk. PEOPLE ARE PEOPLE, NO MATTER WHAT THEIR SIZE OR SHAPE. Treat them us such. End of rant.
If you are suffering from an eating disorder, or suspect someone you know might be, there are people you can talk to, and might be able to help. b-eat provides helplines and online support to people across the UK, and NHS Choices can also help provide information and people to see or talk to if you have concerns. The best thing you can do is talk to the person you are worried about, or to someone you trust. It could really save their life, or at least improve the one they’ve got.